Sleepless Nights

Heres our first song this year. It came out amazing, really amazing effort by everyone.

Its called Sleepless Nights (been having alot of those lately) over the XV track Fall out the sky.

We have a new addition to the crew, Jarron, regans cousin who wrote and sung the chorus and we have my girlfriend singing background vocals.

Let us know what you think :)

http://www.zshare.net/audio/814922641d7768d2/

I think they call this umm.. venting.

Looking back since my last post; life has changed. In so many ways it's too hard to retell without writing a harry potter novel.

As of now, I am currently a uni student, I have a new girlfriend, Josephine, who so far has been the most amazing woman to come into my life. I am now able to legally drive and right now I am suffering from the most fucking excruciating pain I have ever experienced over such a length of time (due to a ridiculous toothache and a fucked up nose due to my excessive use of tissues :D).

The reason for this post is that, my dream has been reignited. The dream of having a unified group of friends that will take part in the most amazing journey to be able to make a successful living out of marking and performing music. The past couple of years this dream has always been approached with a somewhat lukewarm attitude; all talk, no action. Now that life has officially begun, I have realized that I do not want to pursue the usual average joe way of life (go to uni, get a degree, get a job, retire, die). I want to pursue something that will take me out of my comfort zone, something that will help me achieve dreams that I still believe are notoriously impossible. But you gotta dream right?

No longer am I taking on the moniker of Embreezie. I found it too lame, too typical, too (for lack of a better phrase) 'try hard'.

September Breeze. As dubbed by Reagan (who now goes under the name June) there are many meanings behind the name, but for now I'll just leave it at that.

As a group Lurvade is still together, yet separated by countries, Tad living in japan, Reagan in Singapore and Vaughn and I in Aus.

Lurvade as a collective needs to go somewhere. We need to achieve something. So its time for us to get to work. So for this, we need to lurvade to extend further than just us four musicians. We need to be a crew.. we need a crew. A crew that will embark on this journey with us to achieve whatever success we need to achieve.

Let this post serve as a reminder to myself, that I have a dream, that I must not be pressured by the world to conform to their way of life.

I will achieve greatness.

I will be successful.

The world will know the name..

Lurvade.

The Sunday Soothing Sessions Week 1...

Every sunday from now on I'll post some dope RnB' tracks that I'm really feeling at the moment..

First few are from one of the realest RNB artists ive heard in a looonggg time.. Raheem Devaughn



You - Raheem Devaughn



Woman - Raheem Devaughn

I think I love you - Dwele



Never Give You Up - Raphael Saadiq feat. Stevie Wonder and C.J. Hilton





Don't Change - Musiq Soulchild


That'll do for this week..

Lemme know what you think (leave a comment on the bottom)

Until next week...

Dear,,

Dear miss,

i havent met you but i know your somewhere
understand how i feel cause lately i just cant bare
thoughts in my mind which poisons deep within my heart
memories so beautiful like a priceless work of art
i love you already and i dont even know your name
love so strong it almost feels like game
endless fire burning which cannot be tamed
let the rain pour and extinguish my pain
because right now i m on the egde of being insane
i m so confused such, a cliche phrase
trapped in a vortex through life, such a dangerous maze

i will continue this when i have time...
i need time to finish of this poem....
but i gurantee that it will be a good poem.....
so i make nothing of this feelings and let it pour rain....

My poems that i have written

I feel like shit...
so i m going to post some of my poems that i have written in the past.

Hey girl, what you want from me
you want the jewellry, the clothing and the shopping sprees
but that aint what i offer, i beg to differ
from all the ohter guys i n your life i grow bigger
cause my loves a seed and you are my sunshine
thats why we grow stronger in the rainiest times
feeling you close to me makes everything okay
you give me the strength to live by each day
doesnt matter how shit the day might be
because
baby your all the remedy i need...

Ay baby, you say i m your boy
but you aint trying to time down i aint your toy
let loose of your feelings but stop right now
before i walk out the dorr youd be takin a bow
what you know about love girl your still so young
our trip to the starts have just begun
you want attention girl i be up in the studio
make cash and stacks for my one and only fo
if thats you then we need to take our time
cause baby first i need to make sure your in line

This song is for the times that i made you cry...
This song is to let you know that I.......I love you

Girl i know that sometimes you be feeling pain
Let me be your shield through the storm and the rain
cause in my heart i know that i wanna be with you
and when i look into your eyes i know your feeling me too...

FUCK

Long time no post everyone who has been reading my blogs.
Ok so for a long time i hav e been under so much stress and lately i cant deal with the fact that i am forced to do so mnay things for my future.
My mum wants me to go to university in australia but my ideas are different. I wanna spend a 1 year break in Japan before i go back to studying.
Honestly i am fucking tired of going to school and i think i deserve a 1 year break from 12 years of so called school, AKA Slave Labour.

I am so stressed out and its not just because i am being forced to go bak to school, if compared to my other stress this stress is nothing but a piece of shit.

Ok so this is why i am angry most of the time.
I am sick of my self being depressed all the time.
I am sick of people asking me, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU????
WHY ARE YOU SO DEPRESSED???
and this is how i feel when people ask me this question.......

wat the fuk do u want me to say???
how the fuk am i supposed to tell you how i feel when none of you dont even fucking know me?
what the FUCK do u want from me..

It is my life so i dont fukin need anyone else asking me so many questions on how am i feeling and how the fuk is should be living my life............

all these feelings i have, i have no one to share it with.
My mum wont listen to anything that i say so i am always keeping all these feelings to my self and i dont know wat to do anymore.
So i wanna ask all of the people who are reading my blog right now.....

what do you think i should do about how i feel??????
who am i supposed to share all my feelings with when my own muthafukin mum wont understand how i feel???

yer i have a girlfriend but i feel like its not right to be telling her all this shit./
I am scared that she is going to think i m a fukin pussy and then leave me./

I am scared to show ebveryone how i am feeling.....

i am scared the pople who i love are going to just get up and leave me.....

i know that to you..this is nothing
and that you guys probably wont even understand how i feel....

but i need someplace to share my thoughts and to express the way i feel

because i just cant stand it anymore...
i dont know what to do anymore....

i love her..

but i dont

but at the same time i hate my self

i wish i could just die and turn to dust

so i sont have to think about anything and i can just think about nothing....

i dont want any of this anymore............

i always seem to push away those who love me the most...

yer i know u ve all heard this somewhere before...

but now i know how this feels...

and it is very realll

i m gonna stop writing this before i explode and burst into tears...

because all i want to do right now is just cry....

and i want some one who can understand me......

i love...nothing...

i hate...my self.

Southern Girl

Southern Girl - Incubus

Is everything a baited hook?
And are there locks on all doors?
If you're looking for an open book,
Look no further, I am yours.

We'll behave like animals, swing from tree to tree
We can do anything that turns you up
and sets you free.

You're an exception to the rule
You're a bonafide rarity
You're all I ever wanted.
Southern girl, could you want me?

So come outside and walk with me
We'll try each other on to see if we fit
And with our roots become a tree
To shade what we make under it.

We'll behave like animals, swing from tree to tree.
We can do anything that turns you up
and sets you free.

You're an exception to the rule
You're a bonafide rarity
You're all I ever wanted.
Southern girl, could you want me?

You're an exception to the rule
You're a bonafide rarity
You're all I ever wanted
Southern girl, could you want me?

Southern girl could you want me?(x7)
Southern girl....


Incubus is the shittttttt!!! =)


Lurvade '09 til infinity...

-=Embreezie=-

A thought out of the darkness (TAD)

Okay, so before i share with you my latest poetry let me clarify one thing. Over the past few days i have suffered emotional pain which i have never felt before. It doesnt seem like a big deal to some but to me i cant put into words how much of a big deal it is. These days things are starting to fall apart again..I miss my family back in Japan, i hate my self for not working enough, i hate myself for allowing to fall for some one so much. so i came up with my new motto:
IF I CANT BE HAPPY THEN AT LEAST HELP OTHERS BE HAPPY.

so thats what i am going to do...
so enough of my problems, cause i know you guys have enough problems of your own.
I hope you enjoy my rather "emoish" poem

If heaven is a place on earth, then hell must be too,
A forest of death grows inside of you,

What do you do when you hear no laughter,
But only the cries of a tormented soul,

Your trapped in a cage with no before or after,
You go insane your out of control,

Try and escape from this blood filled memory,
All you can do is blame your soul for the felony,

Let the devil live among your broken heart,
Let him take you down let him rip you all apart,

Whats the point of living when death has no pain,
Just an eternity of darkness in the blood shot rain.

A verse/poem whatever... Embreezie

Heres a verse/poem/the hottest fricken 16 I've wrote in ages.

If you can give an explanation to each line/ stanza in the comments, ill give u a cookie :P.

I stress my thoughts,
Tho stress is naught mentally.
Chemistry is my enemy,
As it regulates my energy and this caffiene better be,
a solution to my problems, tho solutions are problems in themselves
and most likely a problem to my health;
Hence the problem in the first place.
But why must I need this time taker, time waster,
and why did time tase so good in my first case encounter.

I let go of things that amount to nothing,
that includes all my bodily functions.
Drinking Red Bull just to counter the stress
of my battle with the enemy, the cousin of death.

Yes I'm blessed, I push my self to the limit.
Testing these lessons to see if my hearts in it.
Because without my team the only means is to lean over
and start to dream thats when I become sober.


Kinda what ive been struggling with for the past two years.


Ill post up some more later :)